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I'm quitting this.

The only time I seem to exist is when I'm in shit.

I swoon uncontrollably when I hear thunder or see lightning. *content face*

See, Jen's posts are so interesting. So funny and nice to read. Mine? Mine are me just saying random things that are on my mind, that people probably don't want to hear. Ugh. I'm in so much pain. I don't even know why.

Yep, Chelsey. Mess up everything. That's cool.

Ohmahgosh! I can't stop thinking about you! asdfghjkl

And suddenly: happiness.

I wonder how boring my blog is..

I dreamt of hugs.. It made me happy..

What the flying shit?! Oh my god!!    :O   O.O  What?!?!

Concert last night.
Amazing.
Band merch.
I'm addicted now.
The way the music ..almost pulses through you.
The way you can scream, and still barely hear yourself.
The way you can just.. let go.
Let go of everything.
And!
And!
How afterwards, it sounds like peoples' voices have been heliumed! xD

And OH MY LORD. That guitar solo. *swoon*
Favourite part of the night, when I got that text at exactly 12:45am. Made my night. :3

It's okay to walk all over me. As long as you're happy. That's all that matters to me, and it's the best I can do to make you happy..

Van Halen concert, here we gooooooo...

I want a hug. Wait.. Wait, no I don't. I want THE hug. You know? The hug that comforts you, regardless of the circumstances, your surroundings, or your pain. The hug that makes you feel loved and wanted, the hug that brings you out of the depths of your despair. With just that one hug, life suddenly gets a thousand times better. The hug you get from someone you love. Not just that, but who loves you back too. *sigh* *wants to write more, but needs to re-clean my room before someone gets home*

I wonder if they can see the pain in my eyes.

*gun to my head*

If you were to just hold me in your arms, I could forget the world. Wouldn't that be nice? Too bad I'm such a bitch, and piss you off with every word I say.

Just when I thought my life was getting better, it leaps into a darkened downward spiral.

It's going to be a long night.

I hope you text me before the end of the night. I want to fall asleep with the comfort of your kind and loving words circling inside my head.

Chelsey, stop giggling like a madman and blushing profusely every time someone merely mentions his name. >.<

Fuck, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

I'm too clingy and needy : (

My sense of privacy has been completely diminished. I might as well put a sign on my door that says, "Open to the general public." -.-

I thought I was through with all this "getting bullied" bullshit.

Lemme.. Lemme just describe my situation, right here..

Moments ago, I heard the ungodly shriek of a cat.

I bolted up in bed and launched myself at the window to figure out what horrible event was taking place just outside. With my eyes not adjusted to the darkness quite yet, I couldn't make out anything outside my window. I could feel eyes on me, though.. Slowly, I backed away, keeping my eyes on the unseen. Listening closely, I became aware of the distant car alarm. Eerie, the car alarm frequently faded out, only to return seconds later. Wait.. Something is shuffling through the grass outside.. Stay silent.. Don't blink..

Silence and anticipation..

Hold me. T.T

Frustration.

Sorta proud of myself right now.

If I just lay here..

Sure, when it comes to self harm, I can slash open my wrists without a thought (if it weren't for my friends). But when it comes to stabbing a blister, I can't do it.. (Yes, I need to stab it..)

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey! If you read my "Liife Story" then you'll understand: my bracelet was actually half the reason I didn't cut two nights ago! :D *accomplishment*

I'm going no where in life.

So my family pressured me into making puffed wheat squares because I ate some chocolate. le sigh

Because.. what if I hurt you..

It'd be all my fault..

I wouldn't be able to..  forgive myself..

I don't feel like life. Do I have to have life today? Can I just.. skip a few days? Months, even?